Why Is This So Hard?

I keep asking myself, "Why is this so hard?"  When I first started eating better, weighing myself, and keeping this blog, it was amazingly easy.  I feel helpless and ashamed.  I don't have a good answer, and the longer it goes on, the worse I feel.

When I spoke with Carol about this, she said it was likely related to grieving, and that I should not feel bad about it.  She phrased it like this: I should say to myself what I would say to a nephew who had the same thing happening.

Food Today

5:30am

• 1c Cottage Cheese
• 1 slice 4-4-0
• 12oz V8
• Double Espresso

8am

• Double Espresso

Noon

• 2c Yogurt
• 6oz Black Bean chips
• Banana